Maybe the city is not so beautiful after all...

[funny_herman]

No...I take that notion back. The city is indeed beautiful. It is the people...a certain breed of people...that tarnish its potential of perfection. The same kind of people who drove me from my home and ultimately out of almost every town and burg I set foot in. Do these stiff-jointed, brown-shirted, propaganda-vomiting vermin exist everywhere? If their hatred is anything like mine for them...I pray to God there is a shred of righteousness within me.

I have nearly half a mind to leave, but...no. Not this time. Leaving will not solve anything, and for once I have people in my life that I care about. Besides...this scourge has grown frighteningly powerful over the past several years. And I do not think it will simply go away any time soon.

*sighs*

Well...the Emcee has been worrying a lot, and I only hope I did not add to his pressures. I wonder if there's any way I can sort of play his pet for a while, because I seem to have trodden on ground I knew I should not have, although he was big about it. But what can I say? I was bewitched by Hannah's emerald-green eyes. I was so taken with her I almost didn't hear Emcee call after me.

Already in my brief time here I have done and said things that are against my nature...yet I still feel as comfortable as if I had behaved this way all my life. And then when I try to stop myself...it sometimes feels forced and unnatural.

But...ach, I think too much.

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[your-host.livejournal.com]

*emerges from the doorway, smoking as per usual* Gutenabend, junges Herman. *looks out at the murky brown sky* Lovely stars tonight, aren't they.

[your-host.livejournal.com]

*glances at you, then looks out at the rooftops again* You know, because they are out there, we must be here. Anything too beautiful is not real, but someone has to tart life up in order to make it bearable.

As for the rest... well... *takes the cigarette between his teeth and puts a hand on your shoulder* It is nothing.

[on-the-side.livejournal.com]

*leans against the doorway with a thoughtful expression*

Couldn't help overhearing as I was passing...and I've never thought of it in quite that way, Emcee, but I think you're right. Life isn't bearable without beauty, even if you have to make that beauty yourself.

*secret little smile outwards*

[your-host.livejournal.com]

Especially if you have to make it yourself.

[funny-herman.livejournal.com]

*stands silently for a while, looking out at the gloom...and suddenly sees our reflection in the windowpane*

Danke, mein Herr...

*nods slowly and thoughtfully*

And yes...I understand...

*chuckles nervously*

I rather thought I'd hear a harsher reprimand from you, but...

*smiles sheepishly*

Live and learn, I suppose.

*smirks*

[your-host.livejournal.com]

Angry? Over this? No, I think you'll know when I'm angry. What is it that charming English rake says so often? Pish tosh!

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[funny-herman.livejournal.com]

*grins* Quite magnanimous of you, mein Herr.

[cheeky-rosie.livejournal.com]

Sorry hon. *hugs*


Always do what feels natural, you need to make yourself happy.

R.

[funny-herman.livejournal.com]

Ah, danke, Rosie. *hugs back* I'll try. :)