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funny_herman) wrote2004-10-02 08:57 pm
funny_herman) wrote2004-10-02 08:57 pm
Just thoughtful.
Danny and Frankie are spending a lot of time together. A lot. I wouldn't say that they are particularly affectionate toward each other. Indulgent, is the word, I think.
In the meantime, I am slowly coming to terms with what has been bothering me. I've been trying too hard to not feel sad. I've had my bouts with grief, but each time I do I push it further back within me. The pasted-on happy face and demeanor diminish all too easily, and the pain comes back all too strongly.
I have to live with it. I simply have to live with it. And I must move on.
Adam is still in the hospital. It seems as though he's been there for an inordinately long time. I wonder what he would say if I were to show up....
In the meantime, I am slowly coming to terms with what has been bothering me. I've been trying too hard to not feel sad. I've had my bouts with grief, but each time I do I push it further back within me. The pasted-on happy face and demeanor diminish all too easily, and the pain comes back all too strongly.
I have to live with it. I simply have to live with it. And I must move on.
Adam is still in the hospital. It seems as though he's been there for an inordinately long time. I wonder what he would say if I were to show up....
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*he reaches out and gives him a reasurring pat on the shin before he turns toward the door*
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