I can make a face and take off.
Aug. 10th, 2003 03:33 amI have done my best to stay out of the Emcee's way for the entire day, but I know I cannot avoid him for long. And I do not mean to.
Still, I have no clue as to why what I said upset him so much. I can feel it through the walls, in his footsteps up and down the hallway and on the stairs. It makes me even more guilty.
Helga said something that confused me greatly: that it was difficult for him to say no. To me. How could that be? Here I am, having said no to nearly (nearly) everyone in this Klub, and the one time I- *shakes head* You see? I did deserve that.
The Emcee understands me better than I understand myself so whatever his judgement is, I take it seriously. So I really must be a fool for walking right into this.
At least I hope Helga is...well, happy. *smiles a little* She was gone when I woke up.
This evening, after hearing some commotion downstairs, there came a soft knock on my door. I opened it to find none other but the Director -- a basket on her arm, and a covered dish...for me! And I had not seen her smile for so long, it seems. That truly warmed my heart and made me feel better.
*sits by the window, contentedly digesting his dinner*
I should make amends with the Emcee, and I will. I'm not exactly sure how as of yet, but I will.
*hears singing coming from the Klub*
*curious, he goes downstairs to investigate, after making sure the coast is clear*
Still, I have no clue as to why what I said upset him so much. I can feel it through the walls, in his footsteps up and down the hallway and on the stairs. It makes me even more guilty.
Helga said something that confused me greatly: that it was difficult for him to say no. To me. How could that be? Here I am, having said no to nearly (nearly) everyone in this Klub, and the one time I- *shakes head* You see? I did deserve that.
The Emcee understands me better than I understand myself so whatever his judgement is, I take it seriously. So I really must be a fool for walking right into this.
At least I hope Helga is...well, happy. *smiles a little* She was gone when I woke up.
This evening, after hearing some commotion downstairs, there came a soft knock on my door. I opened it to find none other but the Director -- a basket on her arm, and a covered dish...for me! And I had not seen her smile for so long, it seems. That truly warmed my heart and made me feel better.
*sits by the window, contentedly digesting his dinner*
I should make amends with the Emcee, and I will. I'm not exactly sure how as of yet, but I will.
*hears singing coming from the Klub*
*curious, he goes downstairs to investigate, after making sure the coast is clear*