Ah, to smile again.

How I adore die_klarinette. She makes me feel so silly. It will be so difficult when she leaves...or if she leaves. We will see.

Parting has never been one of my favorite tasks, though it's one I have had to withstand countless times. Since I left home, I have kept myself alone. Although many acquaintances surrounded me, I forced myself to keep bonds loose, because I knew there would come a time to break them...by my own hand, or by the hand of Fate. Either way, the less difficulty, the better.

The situation is different now...very different...and it bewilders me how strong the bonds are that tie me to this place and to these people. Sometimes I question myself, my choice to stay, my choice to let the ties pull themselves tighter. I never have any answers (and it's probably best that I don't).

In the meantime...I will still wait for klaviermusik's return. But I leave everything in the hands of the gods.